stress..

11.24pm now..
september 17 will be the last day of my so-called-final..
be it fail, or pass..
i don't care okay..
17 will still be the last day, eventhou i fail four subjects..
and yes.. i don't care..

99 percentage of failing as my study mode is never on during this last semester..
i don't know why, therefore don't ask me why too..
how about you telling me the reason..

civil, measurement, econs, buildtech..
8, 11, 15, 17
these four days..
by this time, i know that almost 300++ students are struggling for this final..
but i can tell you, im not one of the 300++ students..
outing, chatting online, chatting on phone, msg-ing everyday,
i really don't know..

everyday before sleeping, i kept telling myself,
7 days left, 6 days left, 5 days left,
you better start study..
but seriously i can tell you..
nothing goes in my mind..
not a single econs note, or buildtech, or civil..

next monday will be the day for civil..
and now, i havent even start touching it..
seriously, i can tell you, i dont have any motivation or mood at all..
study mode is always off..

im not going to pass these four subjects..
yes, im worried.. im sad..
but i really couldnt do anything..
wat the hell is wrong with me..

someone told me to give myself a break..
if a break is what i need, i can tell you, im having a very long break since goddamn week 14, okay !!

someone asked me to listen to music to cool down..
if music is what i need, i can tell you, i've been listening to music almost every second..

someone asked me whether im feeling sad, or anything is bugging me..
sadly, i dont know..

so, anyone that really put alot of hope on me for my stupid final..
im sorry that i have to say that im so gonna fail you all..
yes.. the passing percentage is only 10..

i couldnt help..
staring at the calender.. i know im so dead..
but, damn it..
i think maybe i shouldnt continue to pursue my studies anymore..

maybe i should start study now..
will that help??
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